For each transition
successive will be
when committed one is
to truth and reality.
−verse 3 of Transforming Trueness (Repose)
As I write these words, I begin year 13 of this work I practice out here in the solo struggle. For the entire time I’ve journeyed into this work I have kept a business journal. And just like I do in my personal journaling I often review past pages.
Continually I’m amazed at how one thing has built upon another and bestows what is before me in the present. This year will show me my 60th birthday. What else will I be shown? Over the last several years I have been immersed into the true second half of life−and it seems this baptism has been by the fire of transition and the clear flow of transformation.
Let me say this: I am truly thankful to be at this place I find myself. There is no time or place to which I would wish to return. The journey is giving me more than ever.
And yet … there are still moments when in doubt I question my own truth and reality.
Recently in my business journal I asked myself, “What are you really doing?” This question was in reference to certain activities and energy investments I was making coming into year 13. Ultimately this self-imposed questioning was challenging my commitment−and that’s okay.
The one question led to other questions. And the answer to each surprised me. As I saw in the answers the eloquent thread through the years, I gratefully realized a still alive and kicking commitment to truth and reality. In this immersion into what is true and real, and into each successive transition, it becomes frighteningly easy to trip right into a hole of doubt. Questions are not just okay, and good, but deep-reaching questions are critical to the transformative process.
Clearly in my own journey, A New Confidence is an evolving critter. Confidence becomes new at some juncture when the true self begins to move more vividly in one’s consciousness than the unconscious false self. This newness−a now demanding awareness−has arrived simply because of reconnection with an inward source; your own authenticity.
Safe in authenticity, you are ready for the connections when clarity presents itself. This is A New Confidence.
Just like the mountain stream I love to wade, my flowing presence can become suddenly cloudy. At such times it is important to step out of the flow, observe what is passing, and allow clarity to once again be made known.
I complete this composition in one such moment beside the stream of all I know. Before I put a pencil to the task of figuring it all out, I must arrive back at the side of the stream once again committed to truth and reality.